I need a way to produce tangible thoughts. To take them right from my head and make them visible to those around me. I get these images in my head. No, not really images. You can't call something that's sound/picture/word an image. I don't even have the right words to describe it. There's a though floating in my mind... Closing my eyes helps to bring it closer. And when it's clear not only is there a picture there but that picture is made up of words, sometimes even a voice describing things. usually my own voice, sometimes someone elses.
I can't even being to tell how this is or how is works. WHY?? Usually I'm good at this! I can tell people things, build a small picture with my words. Why do my words fail me now? It's frustrating. To not be able to share this with my friends. And not out of selfishness but out of lack of ability? No, not that. Just because I simply can't. This is part of what makes me so unique. So unique that to see it you would have to be me. Ah, it is nice to be me. But still frustrating. If I possesed the ability to draw, I could share a tiny bit of it with you. But my talent does not go that. Maybe some day I will learn to put pictures to paper by lines and curves forming drawings, but for now, my images on paper are the images of words. That is all I can do for now and then only when I have the urge, which has not happened as of late. But I will find something to write about soon enough. Perhaps angels..... Yes. Angels would be good.